1 Year

My last shot was in May. I went on BC for 2 months. The Doc gave us until October to try. By the time October was here I had missed my period. But everything said no. What the hell. I did everything you said. So now what?A year ago in October I had my endo surgery. A year ago in November I started my shots. Still a year later I have not conceived. I had a biopsy done on my uterus about 4 weeks ago. I am not ovulating we found out. So I was to start clomid on my next period. By the time my results came in that I need to take that my period came 3 days early. So I was not able to start it in early November. Now my period is late. Really this just really pisses me off. When it needs to be on time it is not. After this first round of clomid I will go back in for another biopsy to see if I ovulated.

 A year ago I though that I would be expecting right now. But as we all know nothing ever goes the way that we want it to. This past year has been hard. My niece was born in May and I LOVE her so much. My nephew is getting so big. They just steal my heart every time I see them. The other day we were at my in-laws. My little nephew ran up to my hubby and said Hey Jake smiled then ran off. But every time I see them it makes me want a family so much. Then there is FB. I swear every time that I get on there is some one that is having a baby or had a baby. Listening to them grip about everything makes me mad. I just want to be able to experience that. The longer we try the less positive I seem to be. My family has been great. Everyone lets me vent. Sometime I hate talking about it. All I can think is I bet they are tired of me talking about it all. But no one has told me to shut up yet. :)

One day I hope that all the shopping that I do for babies turns into shopping for my baby.

Taking it one day at a time.

Pumpkin